I have been stuck on this book. A young widower.
It’s so devastating. And it gives me this feeling of numbness. I am almost finished.
The idea of losing someone, makes me not want to love at all. However I am much to late for that at this point. But a review will be up soon!

I had stopped reading because of the holidays and such. But I have picked it back up! THIS time I am very close to finishing!

Product Obsession.

Happy Monday!
The weekend was actually a pretty good one. My parents are out of town for the past few days, so I have been staying at their house with my younger sister. Which has been weird, but really fun. Sleeping in my old room has been kind of nostalgic. Woke up in panic not remembering where I was. But I am excited to go back to my house, and get back to my regular schedule!

Some of my latest favorite products.


I am quite obsessed with Not your mothers brand.


I have a lot of their products, dry shampoo, regular shampoo,conditioner, leave in conditioner, Curl cream. It is all really great on my hair, and never weighs it down. so I get awesome bouncy soft curls. (FAV kind) I’m an anti crunchy curl girl.





Citron Honey Tea

This shit! #bomb It has become my cure all- sore throats, body aches, feeling like you are on the verge of a cold. Can’t sleep. Your friend is being annoying, can’t shit right. Bored. TAKE THIS SHIT. My co worker put me on, and I love it now. I have to stock up on this! You can get it from a Korean Market Place

A few scoops of this with hot water and you are running the world in a few days.



I AM OBSESSED WITH THIS LIP STUFF- It’s matte and it lasts OMG does it last. I love the way it looks. Literally makes my lips look like instagram lips. You know those pictures where girls lips are just perfect looking. At times it can be a little drying however I always put a LITTLE chap stick prior to putting this on, and than make sure it dries completely. THAN POW I HAVE SOME SEXY MATTEY KYLIE JENNER LIPS- yeehaw.






Also I am really enjoying this new moisturizer! It’s called Ashley Tucker. It is lightweight, not greasy. Absorbs quickly and keeps my very oily face matte! I LOVEEE IT I got it in my ipsy bag. Speaking of which, I really feel like they stepped their game up. Loving a lot of the brands and products they have been sending me.

How to Be A Bad Bitch: Review

How To Be A Bad Bitch
Before any review, I want to tell people to read it for themselves, theirself? Whatever.

So I linked it above just so you can order yourself one!

My expectations are really high. I want Amber to SMASH down all those stereotypes that put women down. I want her be unapologetic for who she is, and tell everyone to do the same. I want her to show girls that relationships with other girls are so important, and to help other women succeed.

A lot of women, girls don’t hear these things enough. I love when celebrities do what they want shamelessly. I want her to be smart, cunning, I want her to use facts, and know how to cite them.

I really liked her starting line ” I’m writing this book because I decided to do something for myself, no fucks given.”

After reading it…

Somethings I really liked. Other things I felt Amber really contradicted herself. The first few chapters are very repetitive. She focuses heavily on achieving her look, and how she came to find hers. Which got boring quickly.

I loved some parts and other parts I did not. She was all about empowering other women. How to love yourself, how to dress for yourself. I loved all these ideas and positivity she came forward with.

Her honesty, and her point of view were refreshing. I  truly appreciate her past, and  how that creates her ideas, and the way she thinks. It is something that is very different from myself and I love that I can see through sher eyes.

Some parts I found slightly offensive. (EX: She talks about a girl who is not that attractive but because she dancing like she doesn’t give a fuck- she becomes attractive) I hated this line. She  is being so contradicting on all her preaching about how all women are beautiful and not to let another persons definition of beauty define you. But than she says this. Rose goes on to talk about what kind of friends all girls should have. She says every girl should have a gay best friend because they are always up on all the fashion, trends, makeup etc.. I feel like this makes takes away gay people’s humanity and makes them more of a token. Which bothers me. (But what does that mean  because as a non gay person. I can’t say what is or what is not offensive.) Another part I didn’t like, was when she talks about  how important it is to have manners and be nice to everyone. It’s a little reminiscent of step ford wives. Women can never be angry or show that you are upset. Keep calm and lady like. I hate that shit. If you are angry be angry and say some shit in the moment. I don’t think you always have to prim and proper. Moving forward. I disliked her section about what guys like. “Girls that play video games are always liked by boys” , girls who burp and fart are not attractive. Girls that get jealous. This is some stupid ass shit. Ignore it all.
I feel like she kind of missed the mark on pushing her feminist agenda.

However I appreciate her effort. In anything else, finding your true feelings and ideas takes time and learning. She points out how she used to slut shame, and how she came to the realization that it was wrong. And how she now knows it’s wrong and tries to stop people from making those same mistakes. Her compassion for people and seeing her try to be the person she didn’t have growing up is really endearing. She draws from her own life trials and makes it into a positive thing.

Amber Rose touches on her depression, and her anxiety. She describes it as a constant struggle and something she still deals with today.  Being honest about depression is something that isn’t common. It is one of those diseases, that is kept in the dark. She gives tips on how she personally handles herself.

She parallels, her past as a exotic dancer as being in business classes. She says that she had to learn to make men take their hard earned money out of her pocket and put it in her hand. I loved this part. She is unapologetic, she is honest about knowing how to use seduction to get what she wanted.

Rose focused heavily on the importance of relationships with other women and how important it is to hold those friendships in high regard. To keep positive relationships and to be helpful to other women. She says that if you see a women doing better than you, don’t get competitive but instead understand that she is just a little further ahead in her journey. And learn from her.  I enjoyed that sense of womanhood that she brings. Rose brings up how crucial it is to reevaluate your current friends to make sure that they are still good for you. ( I found this very relatable)

I am going to completely ignore her chapter on sex. (I disagreee with almost everything she says and it kind of allows room for rape culture to peak it’s ugly head up ) I don’t exactly agree with any of that. But that is her personal feelings towards the subject and really my face was like


She said if a guy is doing something you don’t like, try to make a joke about it, so he gets the hint………………………… Do i need to say why that is fucked? Her whole book revolves around men. How to get them, please them, attract them, fuck them. Things that I don’t need to hear anymore of.

Overall I don’t plan on ever coming back to reading this. I like her general ideas, but she needs to really think about what she is saying. And read more. And learn more.

I am already started on another book it is called A Young Widower: A Memoir
Pick it up and start reading along with me!

Hot Chocolate Run!

Hot Chocolate Run 5K/15K Chicago

We did it for the sweaters.
They are really nice, and I actually ended up really enjoyed running afterwards. It was kind of rewarding seeing the finish line.
I am extremely sore, and in pain. But I will probably do another marathon. I actually want to start running. Who would have thought!

We ran with Andre’s cousin James (Jimbo,Chepe,Chips) He ran his ass off, beat his previous time. Made Andre and I look like chumps. Big ups to him though #goals
Andre was super great running with. He motivated me, and pretty much made sure I kept moving my ass. Which is much appreciated because at one point I was ready to veer off and run right into the nearest bar\place that sells food and beer.

Also: The review for Amber Rose’s new book will be up mid week! Finishing up the last few chapters 😀

Chiraq Opinion

“It’s a satire based on Lysistrata. Spike Lee is known for directing tongue in cheek satire to highlight serious issues. I don’t think you can criticize a movie based on a trailer.

Comedy is a broad term while satire is specifically designed to poke fun at specific flaws in people or institutions largely in an attempt to draw attention or evoke change. It is a genre focused on highbrow social criticism. Lysistrata is a play about women who withhold sexual privileges from their men in order to negotiate peace in war. Lee is setting it in Chicago, one of the most violent cities in the country, in order to draw a parallel and highlight the issue in current times. As artists and “free thinking individuals”, we should be responsibly educating people who do not understand satire so they do not think this movie glorifies anything instead of lambasting a film no one in the general public has even viewed yet.”

A good Friend of mine, Marie Tredway– Wrote this.
I think she articulated her opinion, (and mine) it in a way that I couldn’t have.

To add to her point of view. I really appreciate Spike Lee and all that he does for the black community. He hires black writers, actors, crew members etc. He gives POC opportunities. Always bringing in new talent.  Unlike other black directors cough, Tyler Perry.  He casts POC in all roles. Not just the stereotypical ‘token black friend role, or the “Latina house keeper.” He puts people where their talents fit and can thrive in.  THAT is appreciated. He creates respectable roles that POC  can fill. Giving actors opportunities to show case their talents, which can lead to more roles.  Like how many token black friends, fast speaking sassy latinas, large black women that can sing\ are really funny, can there be?! I respect Spike Lee for what he does for the people.

Link to Lysistrata
Chiraq Trailer

An Email To Andre:

Another Day Another headache\ Dollar

So I am writing to you again

Because work is slow.

Because I am over today

Because I miss you.

Because because

Because Reasons.


That was an excerpt from an amazing poem by the world renowned Ashley Marie. This is an exclusive excerpt given to us by the great gods. It’s super deep and meaningful.

Moving forward. I Have been putting together all my work outfits on polyvore. So I can remember them and not repeat. I am going to post them. I have been using it for a long time and just recently remembered that I can link it to this! Hey Hey Hey

I actually completely forgot about the main reason for this post. I had a whole thing planned. A whole idea, it was all complete and shit. But Now I am just rambling hoping it comes back but that hope is dead at this point. All I can focus on is how I may or may not die tonight.

I am selling my couch on craigslist, and someone wants to buy it. WHICH IS GREAT. The whole point of me posting it on there. However now that someone is going to pick it up- I feel my death is eminent. She says she is a women and is picking it up today. Like what if she just shoots me? People are crazy. You NEVER know what they are capable of. Sure I have a super gnarly dog. Sure there is a gun in the house. But like. Fuck- What do any of those things mean, when someone is PLANNING to kill you. They have a PLAN, A plan B. An exit plan. And I just have ideas and worrys. IF IM DEAD YOU KNOW WHY.