My best friend came into town for thanksgiving break! (yeehaw)
& we decided to catch some drinks and visit my boyfriend at the bar he works at.
We went to my favorite lounge , Suite Lounge. Had a few martinis caught up with my cousin and her girlfriend who stopped by also and than continued on to Bottled Blonde, where Andre works at.
there is actually a funny story (?) ( kind of) , I wanted to write. More like a small conversation Stephanie & I had, that sparked this larger idea. But got a little discouraged. So maybe I will write it out and try to articulate the way I want to write it. The title is fitting.
After some confidence boosting\ growing some guts to write it out.
This is what I wanted to say:
I don’t know if this stems from a personal insecurity or an awareness of how non Spanish people view me. But, I base my hair style of that day depending on who I plan on hanging out with or plan on seeing.
Example: If I am familiar with a group of people, I will comfortably wear my hair naturally big and curly. However If I am going to be around people that I don’t know. ** ESP around white people** (Hate to admit it, but this is actually the case) I will make sure my hair is straight or curled with a curling iron.
I feel this way because I just don’t feel like I fit in as much, with my curly hair. When I do wear my curly hair, I get treated like an exhibit. The exotic Latina with wild sex hair -____________-
This is actually something I have been called and it made me want to curl up in a ball and die of embarrassment. I thought I was just kind of crazy for feeling this way. Even typing it out I feel a little anxiety and nervousness.
I have always felt a little self conscious about my Latina-ness. Like either I feel like I am fetishized (is that a word), OR people make me feel like I am not Spanish enough. I don’t speak it fluently. Even though my parents do. ALSO- I have the very unfortunate
But I was really comforted when my best friend Stephanie said she was totally feeling the same way. We both came to the agreement that, had we not been together (she had her hair curly also) she would have felt weird out of place being the only curly haired girl! Which made me feel a world of better.
This is what Stephanie wrote about the subject:
She touched on the point about curly hair not being seen as professional. A point I completely forgot to even bring up.
But most importantly she mentioned how it’s something we (curly haired queens) need to be more accepting of how different we may look in a ocean of beautiful long straight hair and recognize our own beauty!
Really thankful she sent me her input.
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I have debating on posting on about Jenner, Jenner makes it a point to always stay in the media.
And it’s very annoying to me. At any given moment I can drop at least 10 MORE IMPORTANT topics that people should be talking about. But what does that really say about me writing this post.
When I too, can really be writing about more important topics. I guess in my defense. Certain topics are so deep, and need to be written out very carefully. I just don’t have the time to really construct a piece that can hit every point, and defend every idea good enough to be thrown into the world. So I will hang out in the kiddie pool where I can write a quick opinion and get it out. Without the guilt of not thinking it through completely.
So I am just going to start with some of my brutal honest opinion. Without any political correctness. Because this is my damn blog.
I think Caitlyn Jenner is a fucking idiot, that has NOT one clue what it is to be a women. And if she did, she would not be making a fucking fool of me, my gender and I.
She is blinded by her born gender,race,economic privilege. She lacks compassion. (Which is just a good person trait, not gender specific) Actually pains me that I am typing she. She has made statements like, The best part of being a women is putting make up on and getting dressed in cute clothes….. That is so insulting to me.
The best part of being a women to me. Is that I have a vagina. Which may be weird to say, but I really love mine. I think vaginas are beautiful and are the secret to world peace, and the universes are hidden inside of me. I carry a piece of the world and so does every other woman and when we get together. We are everything. I love my body, and how it feels, changes, the way it curves at my waist. I love how deeply I can love. The way my body and mind are connected. My breasts, and how full they get upon arousal. Being a women, is so sexy. I love how sexy I can feel. I can be everything and yet nothing at all within a second.
Caitlyn Jenner will never know what being a women is. I say this because she has yet to change any of her political, social, emotional views. I try to be very understanding to the trans community. Does the trans community really even welcome Caitlyn? I don’t even think my topic involves the trans community… It’s just Caitlyn all on her own is one contradicting ass. Moving on.. When you feel that you are a gender other than what you were given. Wouldn’t you be involved more in that gender? You would embody,relate, understand the things that, the female gender feel. Because ultimately that’s what you are saying you are. Other trans people like, Laverne Cox. I like her and what she does for women. She is a positive educated, well thought out women. I praise her for constantly pushing the agenda for what women can do. And not be limited to do. So for Bruce to say she is a women, and always has been. Is bullshit to me. Or maybe regardless of what gender you can be. You just can be a fucking idiot across the board. Bruce is a fucking jag bag so Caitlyn is no better.