. I try to get dressed in the dark for as long as I can. And than when I have to turn on the lights, I try to cover their eyes with my robe when I remember Lolol
Music has always been such a huge part of my life. I love listening to music.
when I find new music that I like. I OBSESS over it. It’s very weird but if I like a song, I will listen to it on repeat nonstop until I get tired of it. I have listened to one song on repeat FOR DAYS.
If I like an album, I’ll listen to the entire album in order over and over again until I get over it. With no breaks of other music.
Anyways. The songs above are all songs that I’ve either rediscovered, discovered, or I’m late for. I’m usually late on music bc i am too preoccupied playing one song on repeat for way to fucking long.
And I’ve been listening to them in this particular order on repeat. The order wasn’t conscious because I often make playlists that are totally in order for a reason. I
In the midst of the madness.
I found myself having to create a method of self care.
Surrounding myself with positivity, the people I love, and the people that love me. Cutting out things that I do not appreciate or like. Unfriending secret bigots, reminding some of their privileges and understanding my own.
Self care in this time is crucial.
Reading about the victims that lost their lives to the very hands that are there to protect.
Countless heartbreaking stories of mothers, fathers, brothers sisters, daughters, sons and cousins lives coming up short.
In the fog of the politically correct, I see those who are drenched in blood asking why, while others are saying ‘let the trash take themselves out.’ Reading the status’s of people I sat next to in class, or shared a beer pong table say things like Blue Lives Matter and All Lives Matter.
I find myself infuriated and questioning. How do you say that without knowing what it means. Do you mean to be spiteful? Do you mean to be hateful? Where does it come from. Your mother? I know her. Your father? He’s a good man.
Where does it come from, deep inside your soul and your mind. Do you really think this is okay? Where is your compassion? Where is your justice? Does death have to come knocking on your front door for you to understand? Does it have to reach into you family tree and pluck some out?
What about stopping police brutality is so offensive to you? What about proclaiming Black Lives matter is so offensive to you?
I’m sorry I wont ask you anymore questions.
I wrote this up one night a few months ago, but didn’t post it because I’m a wimp. Hence the title, Growing Guts.
It’s easier for me to write how I feel, or even talk to people in real life.
But almost impossible for me to post it. Especially when events are so fresh. When my feelings are so unorganized.
But After the election I found myself feeling the same way again. Overwhelmed. Like I couldn’t breath right. A certain terrible thickness in my chest. Like I have had a xxs bra on for months.
I’m not sure why people who are my friends voted Trump. I’d truly like to believe that they are not outright racists because they know my family. I’ve brought these people into my home. Call me naïve but I truly do not believe that ALL white people secretly feel some type of way about POC. Or was I always just the exception?
However with those that have stated they voted for Trump, it just really opened my eyes. You may not see what Trump represents because it doesn’t touch you the same way to touches me. You can say you went with him because of his candidness. You can say you went with him because of his economic policies.
But at the end, you chose money, you chose ‘candidness’ over people.
You picked a man that gave the already dangerous racist ass people, the okay to feel like they don’t have to hide it anymore.
And I don’t think I will ever be able to accept that. You are still my friend, but I will be a little bit more cautious.
That is my process of self care at this point.
Proof haha because I’m all about showing receipts! A screenshot of my drafts lol So to those that say stop being dramatic about Self Care.
It’s a real thing, and this election wasn’t the beginning of it.
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The Lil Epic ladies were generous enough to host a fundraiser for Two Girls & Some Pads! We made inspirational cards, put together some care packs, drank a little bit and listened to some serious throw backs! It was such a fun time. Chyrel, Megan, and Kelly are the absolute best! It was really encouraging and empowering to work with such strong, intelligent women.
After the past week I was down. The election, and the events that followed really weighed on me. My work week was rough. This event was such a great way to spend a Friday night. It felt really good to be in the presence of good company and so much positivity. It was very satisfying to come together as a community and do good.
And I feel that everyone that attended felt the same way. Together we created about 120 packs that night. Gabrielle & I were so excited and overwhelmed with all the donations and people that came out for us!
Thank you again for the continued support!
You guys make me cry of happiness
** Also a good friend of mine, Matthew Pozo wrote up a prettttttyyyyyy cool article on us!
Two girls and Some pads started when Gaby posted on Facebook about how she wanted to donate some pads, and tampons to homeless women.
I, Ashley, reached out to her and started giving her all these ideas and asked if I can help out.
After I posted the mission, the response was jaw dropping. I still am a little overwhelmed with how big of response we’ve been recieving. I know I speak for both Gaby and I when I say how amazing you all truly are. It’s great to know how many people are more than willing to help.
Some amazing people have reached out to me in hopes to partner up and broaden the audience of Two girls and some pads. Giving us more exposure and most importantly getting more people to donate items. We have exciting news coming!
We got a great opportunity to join the team for La Verdad and they provided us with a platform to really talk about our goals, missions, and how we got started. That will be aired on November 3,2016. We are so thankful to have joined forces with such a great podcast, they are full of positivity and energy.
The mission is simple: We want women, to have access to sanitary items while menstruating.
Eventually we have intentions of growing the organization into providing women and children with clothing, jackets in the winter, clean clothes and other items that are essential. However we are at the grassroots so this is where we start.
The items we are looking for are as follows :
- Pads, tampons, liners
- Underwear sizes S-XL
- feminine wipes (individually wrapped)
- Body wipes
- Zip lock bags
- Refreshing spray
- Travel sized shampoo, body wash,conditioners
There will be designated ‘drop off locations’ soon. We are still in the works with setting these locations up throughout Chicago, to make donating easier. However I am still personally setting up pick up times with everyone who wishes to donate!
I will be updating the Facebook page as we continue to grow and begin the assembling the care packs, we are still in the collecting stage. We plan to have a distribution day the date will soon be released also.
I am very open to feedback, ideas, & opportunities!
Once again, thank you so much for all the support. What we are trying to do is really coming alive and we have hit the ground running! Thank you all again
Just email me at: Ashleyosorio21@rocketmail.com
It is no secret that being born a woman you have this organ called a uterus and it bleeds every month. This is NOT a luxury for women. This is NOT something women ASK to go through every month. For many homeless women, choosing between being clean and having items like pads/tampons/liners/cups often over rides eating for the day, or a few days, or however long it might be for your next meal. Not only do these women go hungry for the day, but they also face public embarrassment due to having to wear bloodied clothing from not having sanitary products easily accessible to them and having to do things like make makeshift tampons out of clothing, which could lead to a multitude of health issues.
As many of us ladies know, pads/tampons/liners/sanitary wipes are NOT CHEAP. One single box of tampons can cost you as little as 4 dollars or as much as 15 dollars. How many times have you put back an item at the store to be able to get that box of tampons for the month?
Find us on facebook here
-Panties (New) Sizes S- XL
-Tampons, Pads,Liners ETC
-Body Wipes (individually wrapped)
-Zip lock bags
-Do I need to state this? Money, any amount will help (Will provide you with a receipt of the things purchased with your donation)
Email me at: email@example.com
*********I AM MORE THAN WILLING TO SET UP A DAY AND PICK UP TIME AND COME TO YOU*************
They are uncomfortable. Who invented these things? Did they hate women?
The feeling of taking your bra off after a long day… Amazing.
I gave up bras for the week. Just to see. To some this is no big deal. Some never wear bras. I commend you.
But I don’t exactly feel comfortable being without a bra. I’m larger on top & I feel that most of the women that go braless have smaller chests. Braless Ashley hangs out in one place, this is in the comfort of her home.
Braless Ashley hit the streets this week. She went to work. She sat at her desk with her boobs not perfectly held up under her shirt. But instead they hung out naturally, and comfortably.
A few things happened.
1. Stopped getting up from my desk as often as I normally do.
2. I didn’t do my midday stretch where I stretch my back out because my bra makes my back hurt.
3. I completely avoided all my male co workers as much as humanly possible. Haha
I went with a cami under my work shirt to give me some control. Mainly nipple control because everyone knows offices can get chilly. Even though fully clothed. I felt so naked. I avoided any movements that would make them jiggle. Haha (writing this is actually really funny.)
I went with a more blousey type shirt. To keep Braless Ashley, a secret. In the world outside of work. I would have forced myself to not be secretive. But since I’m in the workplace, I got to hide behind my need to be “work appropriate.” Which was nerve relieving. I’m not really ready for Braless Ashley to hit the city.
Went just as smoothly as the other ones. Aside from when my coworker pointed out that my nipples were hard. She’s cool, so it wasn’t world ending but still made me shit a little in my pants. And wonder, who else has noticed and just didn’t say anything. She said, “ugh you are brave!”(Me brave, HA! I’m silently struggling not to die of embarrassment about someone noticing my chest)
End of day, Dare I say it? I feel a little bad ass. A little confident? A little like my back hasn’t been hurting all day? Oh yeah.
Going bra free is the way to be. However can I actually do this at work? Probably not, because I need to get up from my desk more. Haha what I will do is buy more bras without an underwire. And possibly more camis in a size smaller, to keep my lady friends more at bay.
I plan to be Braless in the city soon. Maybe I will lose the shyness and go all out. That’s a big maybe.
I went out to see my friend perform in her show! And I was Braless & no one knew. MuahahahaHahaha