My best friend came into town for thanksgiving break! (yeehaw)
& we decided to catch some drinks and visit my boyfriend at the bar he works at.
We went to my favorite lounge , Suite Lounge. Had a few martinis caught up with my cousin and her girlfriend who stopped by also and than continued on to Bottled Blonde, where Andre works at.
there is actually a funny story (?) ( kind of) , I wanted to write. More like a small conversation Stephanie & I had, that sparked this larger idea. But got a little discouraged. So maybe I will write it out and try to articulate the way I want to write it. The title is fitting.
After some confidence boosting\ growing some guts to write it out.
This is what I wanted to say:
I don’t know if this stems from a personal insecurity or an awareness of how non Spanish people view me. But, I base my hair style of that day depending on who I plan on hanging out with or plan on seeing.
Example: If I am familiar with a group of people, I will comfortably wear my hair naturally big and curly. However If I am going to be around people that I don’t know. ** ESP around white people** (Hate to admit it, but this is actually the case) I will make sure my hair is straight or curled with a curling iron.
I feel this way because I just don’t feel like I fit in as much, with my curly hair. When I do wear my curly hair, I get treated like an exhibit. The exotic Latina with wild sex hair -____________-
This is actually something I have been called and it made me want to curl up in a ball and die of embarrassment. I thought I was just kind of crazy for feeling this way. Even typing it out I feel a little anxiety and nervousness.
I have always felt a little self conscious about my Latina-ness. Like either I feel like I am fetishized (is that a word), OR people make me feel like I am not Spanish enough. I don’t speak it fluently. Even though my parents do. ALSO- I have the very unfortunate
But I was really comforted when my best friend Stephanie said she was totally feeling the same way. We both came to the agreement that, had we not been together (she had her hair curly also) she would have felt weird out of place being the only curly haired girl! Which made me feel a world of better.
This is what Stephanie wrote about the subject:
She touched on the point about curly hair not being seen as professional. A point I completely forgot to even bring up.
But most importantly she mentioned how it’s something we (curly haired queens) need to be more accepting of how different we may look in a ocean of beautiful long straight hair and recognize our own beauty!
Really thankful she sent me her input.
Leaving this conversation open to anyone else who wants to join in.
email me: firstname.lastname@example.org
OR you can of course just write a comment below.
The weekend was actually a pretty good one. My parents are out of town for the past few days, so I have been staying at their house with my younger sister. Which has been weird, but really fun. Sleeping in my old room has been kind of nostalgic. Woke up in panic not remembering where I was. But I am excited to go back to my house, and get back to my regular schedule!
Some of my latest favorite products.
I am quite obsessed with Not your mothers brand.
I have a lot of their products, dry shampoo, regular shampoo,conditioner, leave in conditioner, Curl cream. It is all really great on my hair, and never weighs it down. so I get awesome bouncy soft curls. (FAV kind) I’m an anti crunchy curl girl.
This shit! #bomb It has become my cure all- sore throats, body aches, feeling like you are on the verge of a cold. Can’t sleep. Your friend is being annoying, can’t shit right. Bored. TAKE THIS SHIT. My co worker put me on, and I love it now. I have to stock up on this! You can get it from a Korean Market Place
A few scoops of this with hot water and you are running the world in a few days.
I AM OBSESSED WITH THIS LIP STUFF- It’s matte and it lasts OMG does it last. I love the way it looks. Literally makes my lips look like instagram lips. You know those pictures where girls lips are just perfect looking. At times it can be a little drying however I always put a LITTLE chap stick prior to putting this on, and than make sure it dries completely. THAN POW I HAVE SOME SEXY MATTEY KYLIE JENNER LIPS- yeehaw.
Also I am really enjoying this new moisturizer! It’s called Ashley Tucker. It is lightweight, not greasy. Absorbs quickly and keeps my very oily face matte! I LOVEEE IT I got it in my ipsy bag. Speaking of which, I really feel like they stepped their game up. Loving a lot of the brands and products they have been sending me.